The Lazy Dames

This is Cathy and Michelle selfshot with the Canon Powershot Pro90
just fooling around. Love that articulating LCD so you can see yourself.

I've been collecting affirmations lately. Here are a few:

As I become more and more aware of myself
as an eternal consciousness,
I become more peaceful and at ease with all that happens
in my life. Physical reality reflects this peace back to me.

I boldly face the new challenges in life that awakening and becoming
aware of who I really am brings.

Today I turn within and allow the spiritual wisdom
that I am to flow into everything I say and do.
I already am everything I will ever need.

If old memories rise to the surface, I investigate the emotional content in a balanced way, and move deeper into the emotion and through it, finding my eternal self again, and making peace with the old memory.

I am free of the past and the future. The moment I live in is now,
with no history affecting my choices in the present.

I have unlimited resources of abundance, love, and knowledge.
I am wealthy on all levels, physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual.

I am a lovable person who is loved by others. I am appreciated by others.

I love others no matter how they act, or what their faults are.
Even if I don't want to be around their personality, I love them as the eternal being that they truly are.
I overlook the shortcomings of others. I have no judgement.

I give freely and effortlessly to the universe, for that same energy of love and
abundance provides for all my needs.

I truly believe and know my good, and I choose to embody that feeling right here, right now!

I am humble, because no matter how awake I become, I realize that the human condition is a lifelong limitation and I cannot be perfect all the time.



I am gentle and nurturing to myself. I say only kind things to myself. I am my own best friend.

I am a radiant source of love on the Earth for others, rather than needing others to be a source of love for me.
I am the source of love.

There are deeper meanings under all events in life that I may never understand. I accept these events and experiences even though I don't understand why they are happening.

I remember who I am. I am a part of the vast scheme of all that is, and as such I allow the divinity that I am to be present in every moment.

I am doing exactly what I need to be doing at this time.

I am mature, wise, and intelligent. Any thoughts I have to the contrary are only illusory fears.

If I fight with another I'm really fighting with myself because we are both God.

I am free, even in the midst of limitation within the illusions of life.

I am willing to ask for help. I recognize when I need help.

I trust my inner wisdom. I trust the information I get from my deeper resources and intuition.

I am a living prayer. I am always focusing on the highest and best as already part of my life right now.

Everyone is Buddha sent to teach me. The teacher is everywhere. Life is the guru.

I love and appreciate myself. I overlook my shortcomings and love myself anyway.

The intelligence of Spirit expresses through me as right decision and right action.
I accept the free flow of life in all my affairs. I live life to the fullest.

Self hate is an illusion. Hate of others is also an illusion.
I go deeper than illusion and find the truth of who I really am.
Hate disappears in this, even self hate.

The Grasshopper

One day a book publisher in London saw me in one of the pictures Michelle took and wanted to put my picture in their book. Here is the picture:

In Remembrance of AmityAnn

Gone but not forgotten AmityAnn Oct 18, 2006 RIP
In Remembrance of AmityAnn a fiesty old Dachshund
who gave her all to life. She passed peacefully in the night at the foot of
the bed, her rightful place.
Michelle and Cathy

Testimony to Diet

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The last couple of days I've decided to listen to my body and eat whatever it indicated to me that it wants. Face it any particular diet involves the ego. Being imperfect beings the ego is also going to be imperfect so my thinking is if I follow my instincts that will take the ego out of the equation and may give me just what I need as far as food.

There is so much information out there and we don't know the motivation behind the people putting it out. For instance cholesterol, they come out with some numbers, call them ideal, and then sell you drugs to bring your numbers into their ideal range. My pharmacist told me our brains are made out of cholesterol and that we need it. So who do you believe?

I was drinking the soy milk and even came to tolerate it but this morning dug deep in the pantry for that can of evaporated milk that has been there for two years, opened it up and put some in my coffee with some brown sugar and wow, was that ever better tasting that the soy which I was just able to tolerate. Sometimes you just have to believe your taste buds.

BTW, who says that living longer is better than enjoying life to the fullest or that they're mutually exclusive? Is there a shortage of people? What is the carrying capacity of the planet? If we are eternal what's the point of trying to stretch life to the ultimate amount of minutes anyway? Doesn't that simply slow down your evolving?

I'm 67 and look younger in spite of having hepatitis C so I think I'm doing something right by eating a mixed diet involving all food groups.

I'd like to add that after four days of UT on my feet the thick callouses on my heals are nearly gone. It's like a miracle I put my feet in a rectangular plastic pan in the morning and pee in it and let them soak a bit, then step into my slippers without rinsing the feet.

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Michelle Ress Felton, CA

I release my fear about death. If I am

eternal, then death is no more than

waking up from a dream.

Pine Tree Down

In case you thought you lived forever
this old dead pine tree is being taken
down before it falls and hurts someone.
It will leave a big hole in the sky.
Goodbye big pine.

The enormity of this tree seen in wide angle. The fellow in the bucket is high
enough, the fellow up in the tree is way up there.

These men are really talented and do a top notch job.

Heal Thy Self

From Michelle's album

I feel I'm on a very spiritual journey and believe a lot of it has to do with creative visualization and positive affirmations
such as:
All the power and presence in the Universe is right where I am. I am always in a state of perfect equilibrium because I am receptive to the divine truth around me and in me.


I just got my viral load reading and it's 58 and that is down from 8560 in April.

For me that indicates that I'm doing something right:
better diet
take off excess weight
quit any bad habits (alcohol in my case)
take the usual herbs and supplements
drink only distilled water
get plenty of rest
don't stress
positive affirmations
mental imagining
colloidal silver (make my own)
urine therapy (I drank my first urine the day before this viral load test)
adequate exercise (we disconnected the cable tv so no more of that trash)
loving family (Cathy I love you)
sleeps with dogs and a cat who are aiding in healing me
listen regularly to my HCV meditation CD
spend a lot of time on internet learning all I can
keeping an open mind
willing to try many alternative paths looking for the right one for me


This is what I meant awhile back by the hard way as opposed to standard
treatment where you take your medicine. Sure you may feel lousy but you don't have to exert yourself to do such things as change your diet, lose, weight, drink your urine, concentrate your mind to fight the virus with the power of your intellect, giving up your favorite drinks, going to bed early, spending the morning juicing fruits and vegetables, spending your hard earned money on distillers, colloidal silver generators, juicers, water meters, healthy food, and supplements.

All those items listed above take a lot of will power, effort, and commitment.
You must also believe. I believe. (thank you Suzanne Blind Owl)

Before April I was just going along my merry way getting fat, becoming lazy, taking the medicine prescribed to me, not paying any attention to my health because I didn't really even believe I had HCV then the ALT and AST readings went up. Whether that was due to the cholesterol meds themselves or in combination with my coasting along don't do anything that takes will power lifestyle no one will really ever know.

But this I do know. We can heal ourselves but it's very hard work.

Michelle

The Fall Rant

This afternoon I was entering the results from my VA lab work into a spreadsheet and noticed that back in April they tested me for amphetamines, marijuana, barbiturates, cocaine, and opiates.
When I saw that I got upset as I don't recall giving informed consent.
I feel violated.
If they wanted to know why didn't they just ask?

This is why people are leery about universal health care.
We don't want the government snooping in our body chemistry.
This is why it is necessary to end the insane war on some drugs.
Ending the war on illegal drugs like opium will also change the tide of the war in Afghanistan.
That war is unwinnable.
No invading army that destroys fields of flowers can ever take the moral high ground.
If God hadn't wanted us to use opiates S/he wouldn't have given us opiate receptors. Duh!
Ending the war on drugs and disbanding the DEA would also pay for universal health care and we wouldn't have so many folks in prison for the crime of getting high.

Actually ending the war on drugs would deflate Al Qaeda as they wouldn't be able to get drug money any more. We have a lot of nerve pushing alcohol and tobacco while at the same time jailing people for poppies and pot. How ludicrous, how lame, how hypocritcal. Makes me lose all faith in some government policies.

I've since found out that the tox screen is a standard proceedure to see if a person is a proper candidate for treatment. So now I've got to wonder why they didn't also screen me for alcohol and tobacco.